Day 17- A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Man I miss my Mom. Mom's are supposed to be at your wedding and play with their grandkids and at age 24, me and Mom had a lot more years of arguing left to do as is custom in Mom/daughter relationships. So it's safe to say that last July 19th changed my life. As cheesey as it sounds, I brag about the 24 years I've lived, I mean, my life rocks. I grew up in a great home with a great family and my parents have always supported and loved me and given me everything I need. So honestly, it's been really easy to believe in God and his love for me because he had proven it over the course of my life. And when I met Jesus in high school I thought, "Why wouldn't I give this guy a shot?" Everyone talks about God's love and goodness and I had always seen it so clearly, but the huge impact that Mom's death made on my life was that I started questioning all that. My view on the world totally changed for a while and I only saw the bad in it. But after some time, I'm finding that I'll never be able to rely on Him if bad things don't happen. Jesus went to the cross to die for me and then he said "it's GOOD for me to go." Because if He never went to the cross, if He just lived this really cool life on Earth while making a bunch of miracles happen and teaching a few things, then the work wouldn't be fully completed and I wouldn't have any hope outside of this messed up world I live in. He lived a perfect life, took on the worst death in history, and called it GOOD. It was better that he died instead of lived. I'm not comparing His death to my Mom's in any way, I'm just loving the comfort that that brings. It's possible that I beleive in God's love more now than I did when my life was seemingly perfect as I thought it was for so long. What I've learned through death is that the goodness of Jesus never runs out and that's brought me out of some pretty dark places.