Thursday, January 8, 2009

You remember me before I learned to run

Last sunday at manchester, Bob Hay was making a point and I remember him saying something along the lines of, "whether youre a kid, senior adult, spouse, or student." And I sat there thinking, I am none of those things! I've had this conversation with several people lately. Maybe that's why I feel the need to express my thoughts. Being a single 20-something adult type person who works is like being homeless. I feel like we have a disease ya know. I mean those single/career/young professionals classes in sunday school are kind of a new thing to the church i feel like. That's not always been a category. We (and by we i mean I) never treat singleness as a blessing. Or if I have that thought for 2 seconds, it either leaves quickly or I'm actually lying when I say it. Singleness is always that stage of constantly trying to make yourself feel better by saying things like, "God has the right person waiting for me somewhere in the future." And then there are those books like "Do you think im beautiful?" which I own, and "Lady in Waiting." Those are good books. I think. Especially girls, have shelves of self-help books on the dating topic to get us through until Mr. Right comes along. I really want to get married, don't get me wrong. I'm just sick of thinking this time of my life is just some waiting stage until something better comes along to give me purpose. I mean who has time for that? I want to start treating singleness as a blessing, not a reason for a doctor's appointment. And then there's that whole thing about being out of college and working. For four years in college, life is wonderful and you think that's what real life actually is. Well it aint. And I've only been out of college for about 8 months, so I'm no expert. But having a routine job, a whole different set of responsibilites, and usually a different group of friends is quite different from anything else prior to this point in life. You actually have to go to bed earlier because you technically have to be able to function at work the next morning. I don't always follow that rule. But I get by ok. What I'm trying to say is that this stage, if you ever experience it, is a very different part of life. One that I've hated since May 10th. But with a lot of time with the Lord and talking with friends who are feelin me on this too, I've learned that it's a huge blessing. A lot of character building has happened, I've realized I have way more emotions than I thought, and I've learned again and again who I have no choice but to rely on.