Thoughts worth thinking about

I've been teaching Sunday school to the youth group at my church for a little over a year i guess. And not too far into it, we started studying the book of Luke. We are currently in chapter 9 out of 24 and we've been at it for almost a year. Right around chapter 3 i started to get annoyed. But the more I study the bible, and i mean really study it instead of just picking out the verses that seem to make me feel good, i realize that the Bible covers every issue. Just within the 9 chapters of Luke we've covered a lot of issues and topics that apply to everyone, and especially teenagers.

This week we went from the story where Jesus heals the boy with an evil spirit. Typcial story, i mean Jesus did these types of things all the time. But my favorite part is when Jesus says in verse 41 of chapter 9, "O unbeleiving generation. How long shall I stay with you and put up with you? Bring your son here." This was said after the Father who brought his son to Jesus to be healed had some doubt that Jesus couldn't heal him. I like to picture Jesus being really annoyed and saying this in the most parental way possible. Like when my Mom comes home to a messy house. Or my Dad takes away the light bulb in my room because I cant learn to cut off the light. The Father doubted on that day that Jesus couldn't save his son. The disciples certainly doubted, because they first tried to heal the boy but they couldn't. I feel like God has this tone on me when I doubt. Kind of like, "Really Katie? "Have you not been paying attention for the last 22 years?" My question to the youth was, "Is it ok to doubt?"

One of the girls said yes because doubting builds our faith. Literally thousands and thousands of times the Lord comes through for me and takes care of me and I still find some way to doubt him. And it's a wide range of doubt. I doubt that he has any idea what he's doing. I doubt that he's doing the right thing by putting me certain places and situations. and I certainly doubt his existence some days. Yep I said it. But with all the doubt comes the glorious reality that in the beginning He was here and in the end He'll be here. He's still the God that never changes but changes us so we'll never be the same again. I don't really know how to wrap up this long thought. so i won't. holler.