My heart would rather rip out than obey...

That's a lyric from a song by Paul Wright that I really enjoy and one that I have found to be true for me lately. I haven't liked me this week. I've had a cruddy week for several, very general reasons and it has made me grumpy. I've been working with and coaching small kids for a lot of weeks now and I've found my most obvious observation to be that kids are selfish. Their brains aren't fully developed, so anatomy is to blame for most of this, but they literally don't have the full capacity to think about other people. The truth about the game of soccer is that the most important player on the field is the player without the ball. The player that actually has the ball at any given time is completely innefective without open players on the feild to pass to. It took me a lot of years of playing to wrap my head around that, and my 8 and 9 year olds have no concept of it. When they step on the field, their main concern is the ball. All 18 players focused on one ball and that's soccer to them. Yet even with a fully developed brain, doctor's say, I'm no better than my 8 and 9 year olds. An Andrew Peterson song says, "I cannot trust my own desire, my heart is prone to disobey." The root of so many sins is selfishness. Our human nature is selfishness. When I have a bad day or week, I very rarely stop to think that it's no ones fault but mine. It's usually because several things didn't go my way and my selfishness can't stand it. My heart is so set on itself and it would rather do anything than obey. But God wants something different for me. I love how He teaches. How he always brings out the stuff we dont want to be exposed because it makes us sick of ourselves. That is, if we are willing to face it.